Friday, December 31, 2010

3:00 am

Once again, it happened this morning. At 3:00 am, my eyes popped open and my brain refused to be settled.

Does this happen to you? Do you wake up with the continuous loop play in your brain of a tune from Just Dance 2? Or if you've been playing Freecell or working Sudoku puzzles, is your brain solving them over and over all night? Or do you find yourself working through, over and over, the puzzles of your day--whether it's a calculus problem or an economics paper or the language of a deposition you've recently read or some other work-related issue?

I've been patting myself on the back lately, congratulating myself for getting off of the sleep aides I'd been taking for years. And most of the time, I fall asleep at a reasonable time and awake refreshed at the time I need to rise in order to prepare for another day at work. But more times than I want to remember of late, my eyes pop open at 3:00 am and after tossing and turning for an hour, I rise, make a cup of tea, lay down by the fireplace, and listen to the chaos churning away in my mind.

And hope to drop off to sleep before it is too close to the time to get up, because I'll be useless if I fall back asleep 30 minutes before the alarm goes off.

What is this? What do you do if you live with this irritation?

If you have a solution for me, is it too late to add it to my list of resolutions?


Lisa B. said...

No solution, sorry. Sometimes I get up and read. Sometimes, though, I just try to feel the warmth of the bed and the lovely person lying next to me, and say, I'm just resting right now. Or, if that doesn't work, I get up and write down a list of whatever is busying my mind.

Hope you get lots of restful rest in 2011. xo

Joey said...

Well, you know I do the same thing and always have. But did you know that one of the symptoms of menopause is insomnia? So part of it just goes with age. Maybe you never noticed it because you were on the meds.

:( Boring movies help me get back to sleep. White noise turns off the voices in my head. Have you tried music or better yet, one of those machines that make it sound like it is raining?

Anonymous said...

1) yes, i constantly have music playing in the background of my mind.
2) have some cd's you can use for white noise
3) i iron, clean my room or bathroom, or do laundry.